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Havent updated this thing in awhile
this weekend was pretty amazing i must say
Spent time with Travis and it was actually like old times
We had the most random night ever
Met up at Cambier and harassed some random kids lol
Hungout with Danielle, and eh..i forgot the other girls name..
Saw Derek Lavin, Andrew, Daniel, and Aarron but didnt hangout with them bc they were boring and couldnt figure out what to do.
Drove around in travis's car listening to a really bad comedian
Went to the Show and got super confused as to why we didnt know anyone
Eat at steak and shake and about peed myself, making fun of the weird things people say
Brandon calls and we go over to his house a bit...turned into a pretty random party
So we left after like 30 mins.
By then it was pretty much the end of our night and we all went home.
Sunday i went out to Nikkis house and hungout with the Cape Girls <3, Alicia, Corey, Andrew, eh....again im horrible with names and i cant think of the other kids name....
But anyway we went to Applebees and ate a lot of food. Then went to Imrans house and chilled there for a bit. The whole day was really fun, i love all those kids and i wish that i could hangout with them more, living semi-far away and having a job sucks =\
Today i woke up and went out to breakfast with Amber Jones....we were both sick and dying haha it was an interesting breakfast, we were both cracking up at everything and once one of us started caughing the other one did and then we both couldnt stop....it was pretty much horrible but we had fun. Then i came home and slept for most of the day
and thats about where am i now in my life.
P.S
I dont know how i should feel about this anymore
i feel betrayed and hurt
i wish i didnt care, but i do
but i guess theres really nothing i can do about it so im just gonna let it go.
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[12 Feb 2006|09:53pm] |
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Honestly im a mess
i dont know whats wrong with me
or who i am anymore
i feel like i dont have anyone
ive cried more this past weekend than i have all year.
i think im going crazy.
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[22 Jan 2006|10:30pm] |
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Im still very confused about the things i want right now
Hopefully i will figure them out soon
or else i might just go crazy.
Goodnight <3
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[08 Jan 2006|10:03pm] |
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My Christmas vacation was fucking amazing
I loved every moment of it.
Especially Ohio
I just hate having to say goodbye
I wish things werent so complicated
and i didnt have to worry about how things are going to work out
I guess everything thats suppose to happen will
Many Many pictures next post
Goodnight loves <3
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[21 Dec 2005|11:18pm] |
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Wahooo!!! Christmas breakkk =]
Tonight was really fun
I met up with Liz at the mall
and ran into FRANK!! and he ended up hanging out with me the whole night
i love that kid to death
Then we went to the show so i could see my BOYFRIEND!
yeah thats right Travis asked me out today and i said yesss hahaha
hahaha oh whatta day whatta day
then me and Frank met up with Alysson
and now shes sitting beside me with her ugly toenails and freaking me outttt
yaaaa
Im deffinatly hanging out with Kat and Vic this weekend hopefully
i miss them alot
okay thats all for now
yeah and me and travis really arent going out
he only wishes that he could have this uhhh! yeeah
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[19 Dec 2005|09:18pm] |
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This weekend amazing
Today amazing
Midterms this week blahh
Winter break starts wednesday
Ohio in 7 daysss so fucking excited!!!
Mason Milani we best hangout or else im gonna whip yo ass!!!!!
♥
&&Mattyboy im sorry you have to spend another holiday in canada and not hangout with me im only like 68% pissed at you...lol jk
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[12 Dec 2005|07:49pm] |
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This weekend was very eventful
especially saturday
Friday: Went to the show was lauren and met up with Ben and his girlfriend, it was a pretty good time i must say. Then me and Lauren went to Brusters for icecream it was orgasmic like always
Saturday morning i went out to breakfast with Jake
I hadnt seen him in a really long time
We had a really good time I missed him alot
Then later i went and picked up alysson
she made me din din and went and picked up her paycheck
and food for camping.
Went down to 5th for a bit and met up with Liz
Saw Travis and Aarron in starbucks, and me and travis had a fun little game with our feet..lol i love that kid
Then Brandon came and picked us up and we went CAMPING!!
It was the best and worst night ever lol
Next time we go i deffinatly bringing the following : SOCKS! extra blanket, pillow, drinks for me and alyyyy haha, friend who has a tent, BUG SPRAY.
The bugs deffinatly got the best of me...my hands and feet make me look like i have the chicken pox blahhh
Going to the movies tomorrow with Jake and Alyssonn
im exciteddd ♥
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[07 Dec 2005|09:32pm] |
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FREEDOM IS FUCKING AMAZING
Got my license today and Im in love with it
Im so happy right now i could just explode =]
Life is amazing right now
Nothing could get me down today
♥
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[25 Nov 2005|09:43am] |
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Ive been up since 4 this morning
and im almost done with my christmas shopping
its exciting
i love coffee
and we are getting a puppy in like 30 mins =]
its the cutest thing ever
i love christmas <3
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[23 Nov 2005|01:04am] |
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Tonight was really fun
I hungout with Jenna T! whom i havent seen in ages =] and barb and alysson.
We had a pretty eventful night
I forgot how fun downtown can be sometimes
Wendys drive-through just isnt fun if you cant not drive through it
Took some pretty hot pictures
and on the way home me and alysson killed a man
and alysson had a long weird talk with ryan about saying "sugestive things" to me while she is around haha
oh and Its my lovers Birthday
Happy Birthday Travis
im going all out tomorrow at the show and the after party so be prepared =]
i have to try and top last year...and its gonna be hard haha
Thanksgiving is 2 days awayyy.
Im excited
I love food ♥
theres a lot on my mind right now
P.S to YOU
You know i just have to get this off my chest.
you're such a liar
you say "you dont like getting close to people...and you push them away"
but you only push them away once youve found someone better
and ill admit shes like a bagillion times better then me
and i really dont care as much as i used to, it like barely even bugs me anymore
but this made me feel a lot better
it just sucks knowing that yet again ive been replaced and it had to be a big lie
bottom line i fucking hate liars
okay now i really am over it
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[20 Nov 2005|10:04pm] |
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All ive gotta say is
Homecoming was AMAZING
One of the best nights of my senior life so far
Besides Lely Homecoming
I had the hottest dance partners everr
I might have pictures if i can find the cord to hook my digital camera up to my computer.
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This whore makes my life
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[16 Nov 2005|06:27pm] |
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Ive been a fucking wreck lately
I dont know whats wrong with me
Ive cried like everyday now for the passed week
I dont feel like im close to a lot of my friends anymore
I lost my fucking film, that had all my pictures for my scrapbook project which counts for like 50% of my grade, and i dont have time to take more pictures bc im behind on my other projects. lksdfj
Ive been such a bitch lately and its not who i am at all
Ive been taking everything out on everyone else
I wish that i had money for college, i wish that my mother wasnt such a selfish fuck and didnt take all the money that was saved up for me.
I wish my dad would call me more then once every 2 months and care about the stupid things in my life and actually hear me when im talking.
I wish he wouldnt make plans to go out to dinner or spend time with me then call me the day before and cancel saying he has to work or go out of town.
And I fucking wish people werent so immature and talk shit about me GROW THE FUCK UP
This entry is probably the most useless one ive ever written, and i hate venting to computer but ive tried everything else and this was the last resort.
im over it
I wanna come home.
Ohio will save my sanity
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[09 Nov 2005|08:09pm] |
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Happy Birthday Dustin Robert Schwab!!!
You are the love of my life always and forever
See you in 49 dayysss <3333
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[05 Nov 2005|02:10pm] |
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I took the SATs today
I think i did alright hopefully
its just really long
and now i have a headache
But the day will get better
Im hanging out with Ben today =]
so thats hopefully gonna be exciting
The game last night was intense
and unfortunatly we did not bring home the nut
=[ oh well im not really into football anyway
i just wanted to be able to say We won the nut!
haha alysson <3
My halloween pictures will be developed tomorrow
stupid hurricane affects everything
including walgreens pictures!
I get my license in one month and 2 days and im so stoked
Me, Barb and Wendel are having car parties
i cant wait!
Im starting to plan my trip to Ohio
This winter is going to be awesome
Grace and Alysson are coming up with me
Me and Ryan are fantastic again
I really cant be without him, even if we arent together.
Hes still that one amazing guy in my life that will always be there for me no matter what and never hurts me...besides Dustin of course haha
Ive moved on from a lot
Ive gotten used to the fact that most things in life arent going to work out the way we want them to, no matter how hard we try. Theres no point in letting it hurt you.
My walls are up again and next time i wont let myself be as vulnerable
and i dont know why i was to begin with.
Im planning on going to UCF or Kent State next year.
We shall see if i get accepted.
Well thats about all thats going thru my head right now
cept that i need to take a shower and get pretty.
yeah thats about it.
P.S
Im really happy right now
and i really love my friends
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